i wrote in my little online diary every damn day and had a damn thing to say every damn time.

now i come on here every two weeks to check my buddy list and every time it goes like this:

starkid- updated 14 days ago

starkid- updated 28 days ago

starkid- updated 41 dats ago.

and i am sad. i am sad sad sad.

because i wish i knew how to blog like i used to.

i'm for seriously sitting here staring at a blog about san francisco surrouded by a fall template. fall. spring is comeing and i still have a fall template.

how pathetic am i?

i remember when istarted diaryland and i always had things to say at school, but when i got home, i would forget so i wouldn't update. over the span of three months i updated maybe four times.

so i started a new diary where i updated every day and if i didn't, i would feel bad for not updating.

man, diaryland back in the day used to be the shit. you know, when there were actually review sites that updated. and adds that were actually for diaries. i remember my countless entries bitching about the ugly templates gold users have. i still think they're ugly. but there's not much gold account users anymore.

there's not much anyone anymore.

its funny that how when i quit something, its always at the exact same time everyone else does. so when i'm feeling nostalgic and want to go back, i can, but no one else will be there.

i remember how i met a really great friend online here at diaryland. it was fun. i've had online friends before, but they've never actually cared about me like she did. man, she would actually remember the conversations we had. it was awesome. but now we aren't friends anymore.

its like when you lose that great friend from elementary school, you know? Now my diaryland friend is gone. when she quit diaryland, i slowly did too. now i don't know where to read anything about her day. i have like, three of her emails on my msn but none ever come online. i've probably been either blocked or deleted. that hurts. what a cut in the internet world.

sigh.

hahaha. i haven't written sigh like that in a long time.

i'll miss diaryland. what an era of my life. i've changed so damn much and its all recorded here. i love it.

i was thinking. maybe i should start a new diary again? i mean, it worked last time.

but truth be told, it probably wont work that way.

how many diarists here actually blog and do it consistantly anymore? like, two? it would be pointless.

should i join the ranks of livejournalers?

eh. no thanks.

i think i'll stay here on starkid- for awhile and type in entries every five weeks all about me being sad about the decline of diaryland.

-jenine

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